Relaxation without Guilt

Relaxation without Guilt

What happen to the days when I could just sit around, watch football, read a book, nap, or whatever and not feel Guilty? 

Seems like anymore unless I accomplish at least one thing on my never ending list of things I have to do I have a terrible case of guilty as charged.  Who put this weight of adulthood on me? Why can't I just sit back and relax and not worry about if the plants get watered, or the cooler gets fixed, or the garage door opener will get programmed, or the pool gets swept, or the bandana skirt project gets completed, or the back porch table project gets started, or the rose bushes get trimmed, or the downstairs closet gets cleaned out or for that matter every closet in this house, or the cabinets get wiped down, or the fans get dusted, or the shop gets straightened up, or the dryer vent gets cleaned, or the freezer gets defrosted, or ... or... or... or.  

Somehow I got so many things on my plate I can't find any room for the spoon to start shoveling it somewhere else.  I just want to not have so many things on my TO DO list

Well maybe that's what I think I want, not so many things on my TO DO list... Either way I did mark a couple of things off my list this last week.  And now...I am going to add a few things but first I am going to just chill,  awwww.   

Ok enough of that...back to work, maybe.

Keep on keeping on...

This is where I want to be....  This is where I'm not.

Amazing how quickly all our best plans get lost in the shuffle of life and living.  I've been looking forward to this week for months because I had requested some random vacation time off and it was granted.  I figured we'd load up the horses and the dog and head to some lovely spot to camp and ride without the worries of the world or work or....  wait a minute.... back up!  Change of plans... why you ask?    LIFE

Now don't misunderstand, I wouldn't have it any other way.   I am not interested in the alternative.   But tell me why is it I try so hard to plan and arrange and maneuver, only to come to realize it's already been planned and arranged and maneuvered?  So instead I plan and arrange and maneuver hoping it's along the same lines as the Infinite plan that has already been set for me, so when it all comes together perfectly I am  pretty pleased with myself and my perfectly laid plans.  

But the truth of it all is I'm just living in the moment by the grace of God.  Believing that the steps of the righteous are ordered by the Lord and that I am the "righteous"  He is talking about. 

 Meanwhile life just keeps on keeping on and isn't that what we all want anyway? 

My gift...

So for my next selection.....  Dead space, unknown title, what's the next chord, how does the next intro begin,  why is my brain drawing a blank....

Yes this happens to me all the time.  Especially in that moment when I think I will shine, when I am overconfident and cocky, proud and arrogant.  So ready to strut my stuff, show them what I've got, make them jealous of who I am....

And yet, by myself in the still quiet of the morning or more likely the chilling darkness of the night my brain won't turn off.   I can think of thousand of tag lines, hundreds of song titles that flow and intertwine to make beautiful melodies with meaningful lyrics that will encourage and uplift and refill the very soul that is waning and lean from malnourishment.  Stuff revivals are made of.  Blessing from heaven above so marvelous it could only be inspiration from the very One who bestows all gifts.  Obviously intended to bless and nourish and uplift all who hear and can receive, and then I realize it's a gift just for me...

Wow, just like that...

 A couple of clicks and I too am a professional Blogger.  How could it be so easy?  Seriously anyone can do it and millions of followers will come, or not? But it really doesn't matter now does it?  In my world, which is where I find myself quite often, everyone will follow, and agree with whatever I say or blog as the case maybe. 
Meanwhile back to reality, it will really only be me and my blog.  Entertaining myself, challenging myself, questioning myself, reminding myself, consoling myself, being myself.  Just me and my blog world and of course the millions that will follow. Till next time...